I worry about my chances of getting into college

Hi, I'm very sorry about your high school experience. High School for many of us was very difficult during the pandemic and many of us suffered learning loss or some form of mental illness brought on by the onset of factors we were subjected to out of our control.

For someone like yourself with a more delicate immune system and pre-existing conditions, you should count yourself lucky that you made it through one of the worst health crises in Global history.

My recommendation is for you to take your time and gradually work into the college experience and give yourself some flexibility with how many classes you sign up for. Why? Because there is no written rule that you have to matriculate and take a full load of classes. Life is a long process and each person should go at their pace and listen to their body about how much they want to stress it.

I would recommend that you begin your college process by enrolling in some college classes at your local community college. This will give you some benefits like convenience and lower cost to pay as you go. Until you are 100% sure you can manage the workload and manage your self-care at the same time, I wouldn't recommend applying to a 4-year college. IMO, colleges are not super supportive of providing mental health care to their students. They are less interested in pro-active preventative care than risk management of diffusing problems as they occur. So you are unlikely to get a lot of help if you enroll as a full-time student anywhere.

So you need to figure out a good work-life balance that maximizes your personal growth and education will minimizing any harm to your physical and mental health.

Thank you for sharing your personal journey and good luck to you.

Whats your GPA?

First of all, I'm so so sorry that happened!

And secondly, I can relate to a lot of what you have gone through ( mine wasn't as bad so I defiantly can't relate to EVERYTHING, and I'm not trying to undermine what you have gone through, I'm just trying to give context as to the advice/comments I'm about to make :) )

Ok, so, I'm about to say something that ALWAYS makes me mad when people tell me this, but I promise it does get better. Even if it's just a little better.

I also hopped around to multiple high schools because of conflicts ( I have severe ADHD so I always forgot how to do things or left books/homework at home etc. ) But if that didn't happen I wouldn't have made it in time to apply to a uni in the US. I've also been in mental hospitals because of similar circumstances.

Ok.. enough about me ( context sorry ). I understand your doctor's advice.. but what my therapist has said ( which I agree with ) is that if you wait for a 'good time' to do it, it will just make you anxious/impatient and you might try to force your recovery. Which will just make things worse. You need to do what you have always dreamed of, even if you are struggling. Doing what you love will make you feel more confident and accomplished over time because you realize that even though you're struggling, you can achieve anything regardless. Proving to yourself that you can do it will help your mental health a LOT!

I don't know you, but I can tell you that if you have made it through ALL of that and you are still staying hopeful, that you can do anything ( cringe but it's true ).

What honestly motivates me ( my therapist says this is bad but it's working for me lol ) is to not let the people that have put you down see that they actually effected you, that they were successful in making you feel like sht ( I don't think I can swear on here lol ). Long story short, spite and hatred motivates me lol. ( I also recommend to watch those alpha male motivation edits on tiktok.. it helps me.. I'm a girl btw.. not an alpha male insert crying emoji to symbolize laughing )

I'm not sure if this helped but I hope it did <3

Good luck and don't forget to slay!

ew why did I say that.. I really hate myself sometimes wtf is wrong with me crying emoji