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“Please state your name for the record.”

Most people could answer this without thinking, like a natural instinct. Yet there I sat, struggling to say my own name, realizing how long it had taken me to find the confidence to speak up at all.

For years I had used my voice to protect everyone except myself. I stood beside my mother when she struggled to stand up for herself. I spoke up for the people who were too afraid. Somewhere between defending my mother and protecting the people around me, I became comfortable being everyone else’s advocate. What I never realized was that I had been avoiding becoming my own.

When I was only eight years old, I learned that trust was far more fragile than I had ever imagined. At the time, I didn’t completely understand what had happened; all I knew was that something felt wrong. So instead I did what many children do when they’re faced with something they cannot understand; I stayed silent.

At first I thought the feeling would eventually pass. But one thing always stayed the same. The longer I had stayed silent, the easier it became to stay that way. I had convinced myself that if I had ignored it enough, avoided the memories, it would eventually stop affecting me. Instead, it quietly began shaping the way I viewed the world. The trust I had once given freely had become tangled with fear, and the confidence I had once had in myself slowly got filled with doubt. By staying silent, I wasn’t just hiding what happened; I was losing sight of who I was.

I didn’t begin finding myself again because I had forgotten what happened, but because I remembered it every day. The memories never disappeared; I had just become better at pretending they weren’t there. No amount of silence or avoidance could change what had happened or its effect on me. For years I had convinced myself that my story was something that would be better kept hidden. Seven years after the incident, I made a different decision.

The words were not easy to say. I remember sitting there knowing that once the words left my mouth, there would be no taking them back. After I had spoken up, a series of conversations and legal proceedings eventually led me to the courtroom. There I was face-to-face with the man who had sexually assaulted me. Sitting there, preparing to testify, I realized the hardest part had never been telling my story. It had been believing my voice mattered enough to tell it.

Growth is a funny thing. We often assume it arrives naturally with age; like every birthday makes us smarter, stronger, or more confident. Though the reality is that growth isn’t measured by the years that have passed but by the experiences that challenge us, the choices we make in response to them, and the person we decide to become afterward. The experiences that shaped me most were never the ones I would have chosen for myself, yet they transformed me into someone who now uses her voice to help others find theirs. The confidence I gained was never limited to my own story. It changed the way I move through the world. It taught me to always take the initiative, advocate for myself, and stand up for others, even when it's uncomfortable. More importantly, it taught me that the impact of a voice is not measured by its volume, but by how it is used. The person I am today is not defined by what happened to me, but by what I chose to do afterward. I hadn’t found my voice because I forgot my story; I found it because I finally chose to tell it.